I was born and raised in church my whole life. I discovered pornography at the age of 16. By the age of 12, all the men in my life, spoke to me as if I was "one of the guys". I remained a virgin until I was 18 yrs old, mostly out of fear of getting her pregnant. Throughout my high school years, I had one girlfriend for a total of 3 months.

I felt rejection my whole life, and pornography certainly didn't turn me away. By the age of 34, I suffered countless broken "relationships", three divorces and two children from two different mothers, of which only one of whom I was married to. I am a father to both my kids, whom I love so much, and am involved in their lives greatly.

Two years ago, I contemplated suicide for three days. On the fourth morning, I encountered God like never before. And I'll never forget it, nor ever be the same. There is so much more to tell...