We met when I was 14. He chased me for five yrs, but never committed. I was cheating myself. He had a girlfriend. He wanted to 'marry me', just not now.

I saw the good in him, but I lost myself in his own mess. He was self destructive, charming, addicted to sex, drugs and alcohol. But he was a massive charmer, liar and thief. He knew true life, but chose to put it on hold and play with fire in the meantime. He taught me love was about games. It hurt a LOT. All we did was kiss, but he took my whole heart. I can't imagine the pain if i gave it all.

I lost faith in men. I became very bitter. THEN, I fell in love with Jesus, and now I can see the light. He turned my mourning into dancing. I am just waiting. I don't believe in 'dating' much anymore. I'm saving it all.